oh ello again! wow, 6mths! alot has happened.


work:

since i got retrenched and hired by R's friend, Dil. ( and i cant remember what was the reason behind my last emo post..),

1. i got offered full time and D's place (which i turned down-didnt want to work for him in the LR, better friend than boss)

2. got recommended by R to do f1r (but the woman, Mich didnt like me much)

3. got offered to do Sc M - which was gg to start later than i hoped for.

4. but instead, got called and hired by R - and it was a blessing in disguised. missed working with them so much, and the woman who didnt want to hire me, Mich - was such a pain in the arse. i cldnt have imagine having to work with her. and thank goodness she didnt like me much to have hired me in the first place! lol.

5. lost my Sc M opportunity but somehow got it back when the HR called me to help them just a few wks before the event! (and it's after the sisf perf! :P) with this, there is also a potential to continue for the following event! fingers crossed here! 

6. the HR lady from point 5 - went to away to get married in aussie, didnt pass my contact on to her colleague as spoken, and isnt back yet! sians.

7. future plans!:) in 6mths!! hopefully.


dance: 
well, since the last post....OH! auditioned for R's dance team, surprisingly got in, and got busy since. lol. it was tough in the beginning, but it is finally getting slightly better, though the learning curve have been quite gentle. :X it has been two terms, and i've got three dance exams to go for! :S

also, we, the senior gals have decided to put up an item for this year's sisf. and i know truly regret it. what were we thinking! even though it's an old item (precisely it's a used choreo) and with quite a bit of improvisation. hmm. still. i feel very unprepared for a performance and i wonder is it no longer in us to strive for that perfection as we are quite laxed about it. things are finally picking up, but it's 10 days to the performance. hope it's not too little too late! :x


life: 
ups and downs. good and bad, but what's new? i embrace my friends. love them like hell.

- went MSF 09 (quite boring, and i find it was money wasted, but nonetheless had way too much fun with my friends:))
- went to bkk with s. and t. it was quite fun and much more that what I've budgeted for. lol.
- consistent union nites with new friend, z. he's ridiculous, funny and..... erm. scary? haha

and im bored to update the rest. oh well, hopefully i do continue to blog. forgot how fun it was. haha.

life is amazingly full of surprises.


i dont want to be stuck where i am. in all aspects of it. work, dance, life. but i seem to be. ..... always, awaiting responses, postponing decisions.

sigh, it is where it is, i am where i am. walking towards a junture, where the roads splits. and the worse thing is, i can see that there are a no. of paths i can choose. thing is, i dunno where i want to go.

so alot of things happened since my last post. my eldest grandaunt passed away. alot of bitter sweet memories and family. sigh. i love them to bits and being at the funeral and ard them made me so proud to be a peranakan but ashamed i am one of those modern ones that cant even speak a single word of baba malay. besides food items like ayam, ikan etc. sigh. so, anyhoos. sigh. i miss my grandaunt :(( 


sooo yah. now im working or, what i call, temp-ing at ex-boss's friend's place. i was hoping a two month stint .... so that i can earn some cash while looking for a job. but he said 3 mths.... badbad. cos this led to procrastination of my job searcccccch. BLEAAAAH. growls. and on top of that. it feels like forever cos my new boss is perpetually PMSing, im doing alot of shit. and worse of all... im back at acctg. wtf. WTF. rawr. sooo, now i've only got one pending job offer. and it hasnt been offered. and cos of my procrastination, i dunno whether i do want job X or not. or did i not open my doors to other options. RAWR. anyhoos. counting down the days to my last day. rawr! 


spent tons this month. damn broke. besides the fact that i bought a few items for myself, i got my tix to 09msf! but.. i do regret cos the instructors are not as exciting as i hope for. well, and alot of familiar faces going up. good and bad. hope i meet more fun and exciting ppl! yayness. haha. sigh. this excludes, mother's day, dad's bday treat, grams bday. omt!! lol.


danced so much until i fell sick. methinks it is really the excessive dancing, salsaing, indansing, balleting (alittle) and squeezing time out for other things like friends, family and poks. lol. too much sleep sacrificed. and stupid boss. all of which caused the intense flu/cough germs to stay with me for more than 2 wks. haha. - pushes blame elsewhere-

omg. gotta upload photos. otherwise my head will be on the chopping board soon. sigh.


HOW! X or not X. rawr. i hate my procrastination. growls.

work: 
went for a couple of interviews. First - didnt like. no job fit. second - wasted my time. was a scheme or advertisement of govt providing jobs for the ppl in sg. pangsais. waste my time. ppl who registered with the polys didnt need to go for num. test while i did? wth. and we are looking at the erm, same position. ppl there were annoying smoking me and spoke as if they were totally aware of what they said. i was annoyed and stormed out. lol. (preliminary rnd, so no biggie, really). third - surprising and quite a good interview. hope i do get this job, even though i think it may not be what i want. but i really dont know abt this until i start working and see the job scope, experience things w them etc. forth - excessively long interview process. 90% similar to my first job. BUT. i dunno. huge ass but to it. besides, they were looking to hire interns and their LT hire is a 6-12 mths contract :S

random:
sigh. see how it goes! i wanna run off to HK for a holiday over labour day but R cant! boohoo.
then, i suddenly thought: OMG. good opportunity to go visit amy! but i think my dad will flip if i have to travel up to KL myslf. booooooo.

personal: 
gosh. i didnt realise i missed the entire season of lent in a heartbeat! really. this year is my worst year ever. superly unprepared. my sis and my grandaunt made me feel so guilty although they didnt do much. my grandaunt was really funny tho. at one pt, she tugged/poked me, and said in a very fierce and firm but cheeky manner: dont drop wax on my hair ah...! ( i was standing, holding a candle while she sat on a low stool beside me) scare me la. dad was amazingly being childish as he dripped candle wax on his foot (?!?! -_-" ) while waiting for the procession. i sorta gave him a "daaaad! what are u doing looking" and he gave me a cheeky smile. wth! what has the world come to. i dunno whether to laugh or cry at that. but besides that, he got WAX ON MY BAG TOO. grr. uncle was scolded by grandaunt and commanded over to stand with us. lol. damn funny. ive signalled him over and they (family of 4) stood 3 feet from us. then grandaunt kpt insisting for them to come over. hilarious. she asked me. i made my sister do it. so my sister went to uncle and said 

"tua ku, u gotta come join us there la.." 
"got space meh?"
"no choice." 

and he moved. lol. peranakanladies are really darn fierce. they are like our empress dowager sorts. hahah. my grams and my oldest grandaunt. SCARY. no one dares to question them. which is really quite funny and interesting at the same time. ha! 

easter. it was good that i went to church alone. but it felt nice to be in a new place (HS) and to be alone. i like gg for masses alone. beats me. haha.

friends: 
had yummy food and cake and okayish dances for C's bday. im surprised i was included in the grp. but it was quite fun and open and gossipy and shary session. LOL.

ended up gg to sos in the end. it was quite fun. but cliquish. still, had a few good dances, a few bad ones. which kinda sucked in the end cos it was 5050. haha. thankfully for friends that made it slightly better.

had dinner with k and T in the west! which was totally fun! food was yummy. bus ride was catch up session and it was just, great company, all we were lacking was good music. :) aww. loves.



sooooo looking fwd to the wkend. i dread work aldy. and it is barely my second wk. dies.

looks like i may be hired soon. :X i dont know. it is good i guess. my boss's friend - the APNN who is not very APNN - decides to hire me. :X starting next week i guess. we ( HR friends and family at cs and myself) are concerned abt my renumeration package. but if u think abt it.. okay, i prob wont be getting hired that soon, so being hired in this 2 mths will be good. but he says he wants me for 3...hmm. HOW! bleah.

so, since ive got a so called offer. ive kinda slacked in the hunt for the perfect job - which i HAD. sian. im so whinny can die. so, i spend one night catching up with A, another enitre aftn catching up w R - totally loved her and missed her. AND, met my IJ mates for surprise dinner. and found out my friend has opened a back packers! how cool. the place is DAMN nice btw. SUPER GORRGEOOUS.

and, another round of catch up for SNN tonight! and butterFac after! woohoos. parrr-tay.


in the meantime, catch up with bbt, ga and a few other stuff. :P 

it's been quite sometime since ive posted. procrastination is evil.

lol. well... since then, ive got "retrenched". went to sch with p for 3 straight days to apply for jobs, and by the third day i was drained and sian already. still, i caught earnest - which kinda bore mrPs. he was trying so hard not to fall aslp during the first half and thankfully the play picked up after the interval. loveee HL. he is my faavees.

also, besides some sort of slacking, i headed back to the roof top for beer and chillax time with my ex-colleagues and boss. lol. she made char siew. boss loved it. after 2-3 hrs, and 6 beers, my bosses wife was sharing interesting life stories again, boss found the web of connection of ppl in trading industry really small, interestingly intertwined, and well, at the same time warped at such a phenomenon. lol. he is cute and funny. gosh. and A was in town too! so i headed to bgy bar with A & E and had MORE drinks. :X found my max tolerance for beer before my stomach cant take it.. it is X btls. single digit. yes. Haha. was so slpy by 1am and had to cab back cos i've got RB class at 930 in the morning. kill me.

ooh, and the weekend! went to his comp that wkend and got to witness and observe some happenings. had upclose-and-personal experiences.. with. a few XX ppl, which was. hmm - interesting. LOL. well, finally got to meet some of the "elitists" aside from getting quite an awkward tan. too bad S didnt come in the end! it was so near her place la! -_-" 

it was a trying week, but all's good i guess. my boss keeps setting me up with his friend (for work) and i am hesitant. bleah. howhow.

finished up all the accts and packed my stuff. exchanged warm emails, checked for final mails, closed everything and locked up. wont be gg back to office to work anytime soon. but we'll be meeting for drinks with the boss and wife. sweets. well, see how things goes.


the day ended well cos mr S agreed to watch R's evolution with me!! :) it was FANTASTIC BTW! this year's items were fantasticc! gosh. but it was a little all too sadistic and painful and quite heavy in general, but i totally loved it. whee! :) i wish i could be half as good as the dancers, who were really quite impressive. the guys too. gosh, one of who was mr S's secondary sch friend (?!!!) anws, urock mr S! we had yummy early dinner, to discovering hong cha long yan opposite my hse!! yayness. :D made my day much lighter than it was.

looking fwd to dancing tmr. though D's nt teachhhing. lol. and the evening class@MA? hahah.


another jammed packed weekend. and XXX sianness. bleah.
(no, i wont pon indans, yi ke na ren. lol )

almost.

time zooms past at times, and on other occassions.. it just seem to stay so still.


the weekend was amazing. IheartRB classes. wish i was able to continue in the month of apr. the sad thing is that i am okayish at it.. poks is AMAZING at it. he is really a JACK who knows sufficiently alot about everything/able to accomplish sufficiently alot of everything [lol], but not a guru - yet. HAH. whyyy is it that he is able to do sooo many things so well. dammit. jealous. he can practically pass my class and head to the next level above me when he has yet to pass his L1 evaluation course! wth. anyways, the point is, the new aim for RB class: poks to proceed and pass L3... and he'll have to teach me in the later months as i am very sure I can not move beyond the end of L2 course by the end of this mth! lol. and besides being called H, your new name is JACK. bleah.

indans was amazinnnng. gosh i love dans warm ups. and i didnt feel that sucky in class tdy. LOL.thankfully the are did the routine that ive learnt during my " sppt class" with N & T. lol. well, they have a new sys too. and i guess i can understand how the newbies (who apparently have a ranting/sharing session on fb) feel. it is very intimidating that the good dancers are really good and cos the club is soo huge, it is inevitable to have diff cliques. well.... no diff to me lar. not much. i try to be friendly as ive got not much of a choice cos i cant follow dan who teaches at the speed of lightning. HA.

side note: my socialing sux these days. sighs


So, work have been busy believe it or not. lol. rushing stuff out again. sigh. it is kinda difficult to be at work sometimes. cos u'll sometimes see a rainbow.. but u wldnt know how long it'll last... and that you dont know what shld your next move be or not. . .


well, good news is that i am not working tmr - taking "leave". LOL.

All the boxes are crossed out. everything is left finalised - more or less.


im so sian to start on my accounts, i left work early to meet T for lunch in sch... lol. it is really quite sad for me to leave cos i felt like i havent developed very much in the company. and ive actually grown to love them so much. guess it is especially so as this is a job that i really grew to love and help me realise what i would wanna do in life. most people will just think i am running events ... partially cos im too lazy to go into details when they ask. but it is beyond that. the ability to multi-task and see the big picture and alot of other considerations come into play - agian i am too lazy to elaborate further. i love the outdoors. guess i shld count myself lucky that i have landed myself a wonderful first job - which lasted 6mths. LOL. i hope we do reopen the company/ somehow work again soon.

the annoying thing is that i harbour a secret hope of going back to work in the later half of the year, when we have things to do... but i dont know if this will be true. sigh. which becomes a prob about job searching - which i am putting off. (there's nth much to look for anyways!)


i am okayish about it i guess.. just relaxing now.  guess it hasnt sunken in.


bored in sch. waiting for grooovy night. and totally looking forward to RB class!:) 

i shld reduce my activities. especially over the weekends. gosh. these days i dont even have my wkend naps. i wake up at 730am and will be busy till 1030pm. wth. i secretly cant wait for rollerblading to stop, though i look forward to gg for class every week. hah.

had a super dat-glam fall as i waited for evaluation L1 during rollerblading, which resulted in a handful of friendly smiles and concerns from the instructors later. sian. damn paiseh. thankfully to my big ass, the tail bone was not hurt... and i only had to tahan a bruised ass. haha. it was so pain that i cldnt do jumps during indans. HAHA.

so, im onto L2 rollerblading - surprisingly. and i think my new target is to hit L2 evaluation course. they do cool shite like zooming in an S shape curve through 9 cones! zoom zoom. ive grown to have favourite instructors aldy. they are such funny and interesting ppl. lol.

i better not fall on my ass again next wk:(

arrassiiinnng.
sigh. damn. blaaardie embarrassed. lol.

if you are still wondering why.... it's cos. i was clearing my emails at work. and i stumbled upon this name that was oh-so-familiar. so i clicked on it wondering how come it was there. and boyyy to my surprise! I FREAKING HELL WROTE TO MR A BEFORE! wtf!?!?! WTF!?!? we SPOKE?!?!??? since WHEN! lol. YES. he replied and omg. we spoke! wtf. i can go bury myself in some small hole ive dug up behind my hse! hahaha

wtf.. okay, so briefly (for u, mykaypofriendswholovetohearabtmyembarrassingstories)

the email came about when he was the head TA of my module.. and dunno what. gulps. but he remembers me twice. :X once, frm our first encounter - amanda will know of this. LOL. and next, frm the mod. i wonder if it was why the weird looks in yrs3&4. how can i forget about this?!?! i have no recollection of it at all! wthhhh. sighhness. but oh well. goodnews is that i didnt continue the email thread like a lovesick puppy. PHEW. hahaha. some saving grace there. HA! sigh..... but nonetheless! e to the m to the b. :( 


this reminds me of another story not too long ago. like erms. last year. SIGH. how i insisted on gg dutch with BP. wtf. what was i thinking!!!!!!!!! growls. sigh. stupid is me. i wish to recall nth beyond that. too painfully embarrassing to go further. haha.

and there are a few others. i think. i dunno. i dun want to think too hard i guess. HA.


what a day. enough of cringing to myself in the bathroom. LOL.
SHADDUP na and MOooove on. hahahaa.

guess it really hit me when my colleague asked me that as we walked to tg pg for lunch.

i do have a few things in mind, but i really rather not be fired cos i quite like my job! i wanna stay longer before i leave, if you know what i mean. sigh.

well, boss said that it is 85% that A, my hk 'boss' will be leaving:( really liked having him around though. sigh. wait, i may not even be ard long enough to know. SIGH.

does that mean i shld not extend my dance classes and can my other plans that i have lined up for the next couple of mths? not to mention trip to germany. i guess i wld want my backup plan to hire me, but at the same time, i am afraid they wld... just in case i didnt need to go. sigh. growls. what to do now? :( 

my fears or concerns are valid.

i guess it is good that we have a few things lined up. but confirmations will only be known at the end of the month - or so we hope. quite a few things changed on our agenda... and now we really are quite dependent on our L factor - Luck. sigh. and i got news that my main guy in HK got offered by his ex-company.... :S bad sign. i hope he doesnt go, i love how things have fallen in place... and i really love my colleagues, both in sg and in hk. it is a little annoying that our parent company took one of our colleagues, and now, our partner company wants to do the same? wth! bleahh. i hope he doesnt go..

so, think i've only got to hold onto.. dont know what sort of hope.. and im just going to close my eyes and cross my fingers..and pray that all will be alright. :X 

well, my colleague asked for a 2 day break after we came back from TGL and my boss extended it to 4 days. somehow i am more worried than happy. sigh. times are bad and for our events line.. things arent looking too bright and cheery:( 

guess it is another coincidence of my free time and not urs. but at the end of the day, ive been so busy with massage, movies, indancity, more movies and hanging out with friends. didnt feel like i slacked for 5 days. :P 


shaggness frm dance. it's impossible to improve as a dancer. struggles. lol.

gorgeous expensive cars, amazing classics, daredevil stunts and tons of hard work. I had an average of a max of 1h of sitting time I had per day during e 5 days of event there..sigh. but all was good! great in fact! ilooooove working my ass off for weird stuff like this. meeting new ppl - new friends in HK! yay. and meeting old friends, and avoiding some. lol. sigh.

well, for boys who like fast cars and cool stunts - too bad, for u who missed it as i had a time of my life! but was bored at sometimes. lol. and lyd, great to have actually met u there and to have been able to GIVE u the tickets! whee. sorry i cldnt appreciate jem clarkson that much tho. haha.

was on such a super tight schedule i hadnt have time to shop but only had coffee with K. totally had such a good time in hk again. on a lighter note, i finally saw a STAR in hk!  (okay, a few at the event, but i dunno who they were! hahah) ekin cheng! LOL. he looked so old though... and he was walking as if he was doing a seiko advert. lol.

well, im back! without S's H&M skirt... and without SM's climbing shoes! sorry! :X